Stupid punk side

Ano? Magsicivil ako para makapunta ng japan? HAAAAAAAAAA? Pano ko nagawang kalimutan yung determination ko maging chemical engineer?! Para to kay mommy! Well for me as well! I want to tell the world that no matter what trouble comes, i'll rip it apart and move forward. Tingin nila nagjojoke ako! Lalo na pagnaalala ko yung sir ken na yon, tinawanan niya ko nung sinabi kong gusto ko maging ChemE. What's so damn funny its not like im joking nor fantasizing idiot. Isa pa si daddy, wag mong maliitin ang ChemE palibhasa frustrated engineer ka lang! Nagengineer ka pa kung bobo ka sa math. Hindi mo nga natapos yung course mo na masmadali sa ChemE tapos mamaliitin mo ang ChemE! DUH!

Okay! This time i'll be the one who'll look out of trouble. HA. Impossible?! Wala yan sa vocabulary ko! Papatunayan ko sa buong mundo na papandigan ko ang pinili ko gano man kahirap to!

I've done it again. I'm such an unlucky brat.

Nakakahiya ako. Why the hell do I attract bad luck... Why do I cause misfortune... If only I wasn't born, mom wouldn't live such a miserable life like this. My very own existence hurts the person I love the most. This time, umabsent lang ako, natapat pa sa pagbigay ng exam ng teacher namin. Bakit pag naabsent ako, mga importanteng bagay ang namimiss ko!!!! PUNYETA !!!! Wala na kong pakelam. I don't care anymore if I die. Its not like my existence is very important in this cruel world!

I take back my words.

Honestly guys ang gulo niyo. I love you all na ulit. Especially si hypocrite brat. Sorry sa mga sinabi ko. Haha. Nagbago tingin ko sakanila dahil they see me off like i was important to them.

LOL I'm so strong and stubborn

But hey, I'm proud of myself that I can still keep up with the loneliness inside me. =))
You'll never know. I'm the greatest secret keeper of the world. :P
Ofcourse I need friends, It's just that THEY AREN'T THE RIGHT ONES. XD

I just can't be honest with myself

Not that I can't, I just don't want to. Yes. Aminado ako. Hypocrite ako. I don't show my true emotions. I just don't want to. I'm scared. Scared of being hated. Kahit na nalulungkot ako kasi wala akong kasama, by the time na kakausapin na nila ko... I smile and just talk to them like I feel nothing sorrow. Ofcourse, masakit. Hahaha I could be an actor with this. At mukhang magiging best actor pa, mukhang di naman nila napapansin na malungkot ako e.

But hey, i think i'll swear to myself so that my efforts won't be wasted. If I make it through this school year without giving up, i'll give myself a reward. LOL. Much better XD

Oh boy, I think I know the reason na.

Maybe... Because I use to ignore people before that they hold grudges against me. I mean, mukha kasi akong best friend kaya ganon. Pero wait lang, bakit ganon... Nung palagi kong kasama best friend ko nadikit sila sakin? Ngayon isa na kong good-for-nothing kid. Taena ano ba talaga. Oh that's right. Di ko kelangang magpaapekto. I'm better off alone anyway. Pero bakit ganon kung sino pa yung pinaka iniignore ko dati, yun pa yung napansin sakin at least ha. Ang pumapasok lang talaga sa isip ko ay yung hypocrite punk na yon e. Wala naman akong maalalang may ginawa akong masama sakanya kaya ba't ganon nya ko tratuhin?

Shitness. I don't care anymore!

Ayoko na manahimik! Masnapapagod pa kong manahimik kaysa magingay na parang tagaskwater?! Ano ba ang tama? Ano ba ang mali?! Like I care! It's because I care that I got hurt! Like hell there's such thing as right and wrong... Who gives a damn anyway! Wala na kong pakelam, gagawin ko lang kung anong gusto ko! With that, I can live without regrets!